After*Words... a snippet of my creative psychology.
Song Inspiration: India Arie “Good Man”
To Whom It May Concern;
Dear Daddy,
I hope this letter finds you well
Within you’ll find the truth about my living hell
As a Fatherless child statistics state at relationships I may fail
I’m more likely to be used
My self-esteem will be abused
Mommy won’t know what to do
She’ll be the only patriarchal voice I know
But the truth is she can’t fill your shoes
All she can do is pray I follow her rules
Avoid the mistakes she made
Promise to God I can wait
Dear Father,
I hope these words pierce you well
For in them my soul will be revealed
As a Fatherless girl my heart grows colder
At the thoughts of being with any male
I fear they’ll put me through an undeniable hell
Within the relationship I may lose myself
I may not know who I am
What I’m worth
What I should expect
All I know is where I’ve been
Won’t have a clue where I’m going
My ideals may not be based on something real
Dear Sir,
I hope these years have found you doing well
We have unresolved issues that reside in my soul and dwell
I’ve grown up in an insecure world
I want to know what it means to be Daddy’s little girl
You left me in the cold, no warmth, no love
I don’t long for a man’s touch
I yearn for my Father’s protective hug
I need to know it wasn’t me you ran from
I’d like to know how to treat him
I want you to know that I still need your love
Yours Truly,
A Girl Named Nicky
(Deeper Meanings- Basic Truths).
