After*Words: a snippet of my creative psychology.
Song Inspiration: Jojo “Pedialyte”
Suicide
Feeling all mixed up inside
I think about committing suicide
I can’t blame others for my problems
Because I’m not the only one that has them
Although, I kind of wonder who would cry
Sulking in depression
I must end my life
Oh my Lord, are you feeling me?
I’m telling you these things and I can’t believe
This is the life you’ve laid out for me
I’m two steps close, from falling off the edge
I wonder who’s going to catch me in the end
Tired of my family and so-called friends
It’s either me kill them or put myself to rest
I can’t do it anymore
I just know I can’t
It’s killing me inside and I can no longer hide
Oh my Lord, are you feeling me?
I’m telling you these things and I can’t believe
This is the life you’ve laid out for me
It’s not a cry for help
I don’t want to be free
I just need somebody to listen to me
These are the thoughts of a troubled teen
Which direction am I headed?
Is there help out there for me?
I don’t really know
Now only time can show
Oh my Lord, are you feeling me?
I’m telling you these things and I can’t believe
This is the life you’ve laid out for me
From ‘Original Compositions by a Girl Named Nicky; Love, Life and Deceptions’
